Bundle of nerves

Tomorrow is the day that my summer life starts. I chance to see if I"m gonna survive the next part. Dealing with the children longer and making mine and there lives co-exhist. Figureing out how to balance everything. It will work itself out. I know I have to take the chance one this class when I could probably be sitting at home helping my kids learn to deal with all of this. They've been so occupied with school that they haven't yet grasped the gravity of our situation. And for the duration. I was discplinning Nate today and he was smiling at me and gigling and I just looked at him and squeezed him real tight and told him that he looked so much like his dad. It helps me to be able to look at my son and see Geoff. A spitting image. And most people are probably thinking the same thing,too. Nathan is the only visual link I have to Geoff. Natalie looks like my mom and Nich looks like my dad. Its so weird that I can look through Nathans eyes and see Geoff looking right back at me expecially when he's smiling. Food for thought.